(For the full effect listen to this song while your read me.)
Tumblr I have to come out and say it.. I miss you!!!
I miss conservations with Roger & Alex. I tried for over a year to ignore you. I said it was time to grow up and that I didn’t need you anymore.
Who am I kidding? I’m Peter Pan.
I thought of you from time to time. I wanted to write to you, but I was afraid the real world would find out about you. I’m still afraid they will, but its no fun without you. I’m still learning. I’m still making mistakes, and I’m still being me. I tried the professional blog, but what’s the fun when you have to watch every word you say? I also thought about making a completely new blog with a secret alias, but what about all our memories? We’ve had some ridiculous times and some amazing friends.
Why do I need to bury the best four years of my life? Aren’t these next years supposed to be our best? I have to be honest, life isn’t as exciting or adventurous, but that comes with having a full time job. By the way, being on TV isn’t all its cracked up to be… its a lot of work, and kind of depressing. It’s not a walk in the park, but I knew what I was signing up for. It may not be my cup of tea now, but I know I’ll be so happy I pushed through it when I look back in a couple years.
I’m closer to the water than little old gvegas. I get the opportunity to look at it every day. I have a butt. Yes, I have learned that weight lifting and squatting is a good thing. You can thank ronaction. Why didn’t I go to you Southwest Rec? I’ve painted twice since I’ve gotten here.
I still love Wilson. He’s literally the best impulse buy on craigslist in the world. This little nugget means more to me than anything I’ve ever had. I love him. I love him so much.
Mummy and Daddy have visited a couple of times. They always like to extend their stay. I want them to be happy and be taken care of so bad.
I got to go back for two game days this year. FSU and UT.. It makes me very happy to come home, and very happy to see my girls. I am a horrible friend and I don’t know how to communicate, but that’s something I’ve got to work on.
I went to the Emmys in Nashville with Ronaction. It was nice being in my other home and taking him out in the city.
I’ve had some former eli moments, but they’ve all worked out… so they’re funny to laugh about?
I coach swimming at the YMCA here. Its nice. It makes me smile. I also did my first triathlon!! Can you believe it? I want to get my own bike and do more. I also got to compete with the old swim team and swim against UNC.
I’ve gotten to dance two times this year, and both times I was so happy to feel free and alive.
It hasn’t been all sunny skies here though, you know me and I get a little down sometimes. I took the plunge and decided to go on some depression meds. I don’t know if they’re working, but I’m still taking them.
When I got here it was just Wilson and I. Wilson and I watching movies and drinking wine. Then I met Ronaction. I truly believe Ronaction and I were supposed to meet here at my first job. Without him, I don’t know how I would have gotten through my first year in the real world. It’s a hard life yo. Especially when you’re making two dollars and work on the weekends.
This man says I went after him, but he had the unfortunate choice of going after me. He had no idea what can of worms he opened. Yes, I am a better person than before, but its been a hard year for him dealing with me. I learn my lessons the hard way, but I truly care so deeply for this man. I would love to give him the world and all his dreams. He taught me what it means to be honest, and what a real relationship entails. Who believed I could be tied down! I wish I could spend every day left here with him.
Unfortunately, I’m ready for a new chapter in my life. Its been great and all, but restless eli is ready for change again. Its time to learn more and face new experiences! Who knows what the next chapter will hold, but I’m ready to invite you back into my world mr. tumblr.
Today I ran to, ‘let it go’ on the highway. It was quite something special.
Wait what is it? You want to hear about how everyone else is doing? Well, let me tell you.
Dirty D is up in law school doing big things. She’s in the same state as me so I’ve gotten to see her from time to time. I might visit her sometime real soon. She’s back with her high school boo.
Pequena is lost.. but she graduated!!! She let go of dro and is on to new lovequests. I hope she becomes happier soon.
Prettyscribbles is maybe at the best job in the world working with computers.. I admit I am so insanely jealous of her. She’s so happy at her job, and that’s truly something to be proud of.
Ray is making money and still trying to find true love in the big city of orlando as a new time nurse.
GDI Swim friend lost the love of her life. He broke up with her because he doesn’t have time for her… ridiculous.
Gbaby had a year of learning, self help, and mediation.. something I want to get into. She will be attending Emory Med in the fall.
Swimfan and I talked for most of the year after college. I think its crazy we only really clicked that last month of my senior year and continued to chat for so long. He’s truly something special, but we are in different worlds. I need to live in the present for once.
You’re probably thinking who is Swimfan? This is actually his first name drop… I’m not mistaking him with Michael Phelps.. He got married!
Speaking of married… Mr. Big! Oh, my love Mr. Big that I would never marry for fear he would cheat on me with his secretary at the law office. He just got into a facebook official relationship. It made me sad for about five minutes. The idiot also graduated from law school!! Hope blob can pass the bar.. His ex-girlfriend (the one who made me the saddest of all times) also called me once at work to apologize.It was surprising and I forgave her, but it didn’t help much.
OSK didn’t join the military!!! He actually made a career change and randomly got a job with American Electric. Its been a year of acceptance and change, but I think he is happy. Its year 23, and I am still really sad Cory Monteith died.
Mentee is at Duke Law of all places. We are literally two hours away. I wish him the best. Unfortunately, the brightest flame sometimes has the shortest wick.
Old best friend is still trying to get into med school. We had an interesting encounter at the FSU game. We are civil now. Only Instagram friends but not facbeook friends.
Forbidden Fruit is in med school. I think he is happy? He’s still forbidden but not gay.
These are the friends I’ve spoken to in the last year. The people that make me smile. Most of them I’d like to stay in touch with as years go by. We are all funny people, all connected in such strange ways, with such interesting stories.
As for Slinder, we still do not speak. Ironically, I’ve been to Virginia so many times this year. I think the man still despises me. Alas, time must heal all. Cheers to being friends one day in the near future.
I read a book called 10 percent happier. I’d like to get into meditation, and use this blog to post positive things in my life.