24th
July
Rainy beautiful day. Its my one year anniversary of being a full time working girl. I survived. 

Rainy beautiful day. Its my one year anniversary of being a full time working girl. I survived. 

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24th
July
I went on an impromptu overnight trip to Emerald Isle with ronaction. We danced with his friends on the beach with sparklers. It was uplifting. 

I went on an impromptu overnight trip to Emerald Isle with ronaction. We danced with his friends on the beach with sparklers. It was uplifting. 

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18th
July
(For the full effect listen to this song while your read me.)
Tumblr I have to come out and say it.. I miss you!!!
I miss conservations with Roger & Alex. I tried for over a year to ignore you. I said it was time to grow up and that I didn’t need you anymore.
Who am I kidding? I’m Peter Pan.
I thought of you from time to time. I wanted to write to you, but I was afraid the real world would find out about you. I’m still afraid they will, but its no fun without you. I’m still learning. I’m still making mistakes, and I’m still being me. I tried the professional blog, but what’s the fun when you have to watch every word you say? I also thought about making a completely new blog with a secret alias, but what about all our memories? We’ve had some ridiculous times and some amazing friends.
Why do I need to bury the best four years of my life? Aren’t these next years supposed to be our best? I have to be honest, life isn’t as exciting or adventurous, but that comes with having a full time job. By the way, being on TV isn’t all its cracked up to be… its a lot of work, and kind of depressing. It’s not a walk in the park, but I knew what I was signing up for. It may not be my cup of tea now, but I know I’ll be so happy I pushed through it when I look back in a couple years.
I’m closer to the water than little old gvegas. I get the opportunity to look at it every day. I have a butt. Yes, I have learned that weight lifting and squatting is a good thing. You can thank ronaction. Why didn’t I go to you Southwest Rec? I’ve painted twice since I’ve gotten here.
I still love Wilson. He’s literally the best impulse buy on craigslist in the world. This little nugget means more to me than anything I’ve ever had. I love him. I love him so much.
Mummy and Daddy have visited a couple of times. They always like to extend their stay. I want them to be happy and be taken care of so bad.
I got to go back for two game days this year. FSU and UT.. It makes me very happy to come home, and very happy to see my girls. I am a horrible friend and I don’t know how to communicate, but that’s something I’ve got to work on.
I went to the Emmys in Nashville with Ronaction. It was nice being in my other home and taking him out in the city.
I’ve had some former eli moments, but they’ve all worked out… so they’re funny to laugh about?
I coach swimming at the YMCA here. Its nice. It makes me smile. I also did my first triathlon!! Can you believe it? I want to get my own bike and do more. I also got to compete with the old swim team and swim against UNC. 
I’ve gotten to dance two times this year, and both times I was so happy to feel free and alive.
It hasn’t been all sunny skies here though, you know me and I get a little down sometimes. I took the plunge and decided to go on some depression meds. I don’t know if they’re working, but I’m still taking them. 
When I got here it was just Wilson and I. Wilson and I watching movies and drinking wine. Then I met Ronaction. I truly believe Ronaction and I were supposed to meet here at my first job. Without him, I don’t know how I would have gotten through my first year in the real world. It’s a hard life yo. Especially when you’re making two dollars and work on the weekends.
This man says I went after him, but he had the unfortunate choice of going after me. He had no idea what can of worms he opened. Yes, I am a better person than before, but its been a hard year for him dealing with me. I learn my lessons the hard way, but I truly care so deeply for this man. I would love to give him the world and all his dreams. He taught me what it means to be honest, and what a real relationship entails. Who believed I could be tied down! I wish I could spend every day left here with him.
Unfortunately, I’m ready for a new chapter in my life. Its been great and all, but restless eli is ready for change again. Its time to learn more and face new experiences! Who knows what the next chapter will hold, but I’m ready to invite you back into my world mr. tumblr.
Today I ran to, ‘let it go’ on the highway. It was quite something special.
Wait what is it? You want to hear about how everyone else is doing? Well, let me tell you.
Dirty D is up in law school doing big things. She’s in the same state as me so I’ve gotten to see her from time to time. I might visit her sometime real soon. She’s back with her high school boo.
Pequena is lost.. but she graduated!!! She let go of dro and is on to new lovequests. I hope she becomes happier soon.
Prettyscribbles is maybe at the best job in the world working with computers.. I admit I am so insanely jealous of her. She’s so happy at her job, and that’s truly something to be proud of.
Ray is making money and still trying to find true love in the big city of orlando as a new time nurse.
GDI Swim friend lost the love of her life. He broke up with her because he doesn’t have time for her… ridiculous.
Gbaby had a year of learning, self help, and mediation.. something I want to get into. She will be attending Emory Med in the fall. 
Swimfan and I talked for most of the year after college. I think its crazy we only really clicked that last month of my senior year and continued to chat for so long. He’s truly something special, but we are in different worlds. I need to live in the present for once.
You’re probably thinking who is Swimfan? This is actually his first name drop… I’m not mistaking him with Michael Phelps.. He got married!
Speaking of married… Mr. Big! Oh, my love Mr. Big that I would never marry for fear he would cheat on me with his secretary at the law office. He just got into a facebook official relationship. It made me sad for about five minutes. The idiot also graduated from law school!! Hope blob can pass the bar.. His ex-girlfriend (the one who made me the saddest of all times) also called me once at work to apologize.It was surprising and I forgave her, but it didn’t help much.
OSK didn’t join the military!!! He actually made a career change and randomly got a job with American Electric. Its been a year of acceptance and change, but I think he is happy. Its year 23, and I am still really sad Cory Monteith died.
Mentee is at Duke Law of all places. We are literally two hours away. I wish him the best. Unfortunately, the brightest flame sometimes has the shortest wick.
Old best friend is still trying to get into med school. We had an interesting encounter at the FSU game. We are civil now. Only Instagram friends but not facbeook friends.
Forbidden Fruit is in med school. I think he is happy? He’s still forbidden but not gay.
These are the friends I’ve spoken to in the last year. The people that make me smile. Most of them I’d like to stay in touch with as years go by. We are all funny people, all connected in such strange ways, with such interesting stories.
As for Slinder, we still do not speak. Ironically, I’ve been to Virginia so many times this year. I think the man still despises me. Alas, time must heal all. Cheers to being friends one day in the near future.
I read a book called 10 percent happier. I’d like to get into meditation, and use this blog to post positive things in my life.

(For the full effect listen to this song while your read me.)

Tumblr I have to come out and say it.. I miss you!!!

I miss conservations with Roger & Alex. I tried for over a year to ignore you. I said it was time to grow up and that I didn’t need you anymore.

Who am I kidding? I’m Peter Pan.

I thought of you from time to time. I wanted to write to you, but I was afraid the real world would find out about you. I’m still afraid they will, but its no fun without you. I’m still learning. I’m still making mistakes, and I’m still being me. I tried the professional blog, but what’s the fun when you have to watch every word you say? I also thought about making a completely new blog with a secret alias, but what about all our memories? We’ve had some ridiculous times and some amazing friends.

Why do I need to bury the best four years of my life? Aren’t these next years supposed to be our best? I have to be honest, life isn’t as exciting or adventurous, but that comes with having a full time job. By the way, being on TV isn’t all its cracked up to be… its a lot of work, and kind of depressing. It’s not a walk in the park, but I knew what I was signing up for. It may not be my cup of tea now, but I know I’ll be so happy I pushed through it when I look back in a couple years.

I’m closer to the water than little old gvegas. I get the opportunity to look at it every day. I have a butt. Yes, I have learned that weight lifting and squatting is a good thing. You can thank ronaction. Why didn’t I go to you Southwest Rec? I’ve painted twice since I’ve gotten here.

I still love Wilson. He’s literally the best impulse buy on craigslist in the world. This little nugget means more to me than anything I’ve ever had. I love him. I love him so much.

Mummy and Daddy have visited a couple of times. They always like to extend their stay. I want them to be happy and be taken care of so bad.

I got to go back for two game days this year. FSU and UT.. It makes me very happy to come home, and very happy to see my girls. I am a horrible friend and I don’t know how to communicate, but that’s something I’ve got to work on.

I went to the Emmys in Nashville with Ronaction. It was nice being in my other home and taking him out in the city.

I’ve had some former eli moments, but they’ve all worked out… so they’re funny to laugh about?

I coach swimming at the YMCA here. Its nice. It makes me smile. I also did my first triathlon!! Can you believe it? I want to get my own bike and do more. I also got to compete with the old swim team and swim against UNC. 

I’ve gotten to dance two times this year, and both times I was so happy to feel free and alive.

It hasn’t been all sunny skies here though, you know me and I get a little down sometimes. I took the plunge and decided to go on some depression meds. I don’t know if they’re working, but I’m still taking them. 

When I got here it was just Wilson and I. Wilson and I watching movies and drinking wine. Then I met Ronaction. I truly believe Ronaction and I were supposed to meet here at my first job. Without him, I don’t know how I would have gotten through my first year in the real world. It’s a hard life yo. Especially when you’re making two dollars and work on the weekends.

This man says I went after him, but he had the unfortunate choice of going after me. He had no idea what can of worms he opened. Yes, I am a better person than before, but its been a hard year for him dealing with me. I learn my lessons the hard way, but I truly care so deeply for this man. I would love to give him the world and all his dreams. He taught me what it means to be honest, and what a real relationship entails. Who believed I could be tied down! I wish I could spend every day left here with him.

Unfortunately, I’m ready for a new chapter in my life. Its been great and all, but restless eli is ready for change again. Its time to learn more and face new experiences! Who knows what the next chapter will hold, but I’m ready to invite you back into my world mr. tumblr.

Today I ran to, ‘let it go’ on the highway. It was quite something special.

Wait what is it? You want to hear about how everyone else is doing? Well, let me tell you.

Dirty D is up in law school doing big things. She’s in the same state as me so I’ve gotten to see her from time to time. I might visit her sometime real soon. She’s back with her high school boo.

Pequena is lost.. but she graduated!!! She let go of dro and is on to new lovequests. I hope she becomes happier soon.

Prettyscribbles is maybe at the best job in the world working with computers.. I admit I am so insanely jealous of her. She’s so happy at her job, and that’s truly something to be proud of.

Ray is making money and still trying to find true love in the big city of orlando as a new time nurse.

GDI Swim friend lost the love of her life. He broke up with her because he doesn’t have time for her… ridiculous.

Gbaby had a year of learning, self help, and mediation.. something I want to get into. She will be attending Emory Med in the fall. 

Swimfan and I talked for most of the year after college. I think its crazy we only really clicked that last month of my senior year and continued to chat for so long. He’s truly something special, but we are in different worlds. I need to live in the present for once.

You’re probably thinking who is Swimfan? This is actually his first name drop… I’m not mistaking him with Michael Phelps.. He got married!

Speaking of married… Mr. Big! Oh, my love Mr. Big that I would never marry for fear he would cheat on me with his secretary at the law office. He just got into a facebook official relationship. It made me sad for about five minutes. The idiot also graduated from law school!! Hope blob can pass the bar.. His ex-girlfriend (the one who made me the saddest of all times) also called me once at work to apologize.It was surprising and I forgave her, but it didn’t help much.

OSK didn’t join the military!!! He actually made a career change and randomly got a job with American Electric. Its been a year of acceptance and change, but I think he is happy. Its year 23, and I am still really sad Cory Monteith died.

Mentee is at Duke Law of all places. We are literally two hours away. I wish him the best. Unfortunately, the brightest flame sometimes has the shortest wick.

Old best friend is still trying to get into med school. We had an interesting encounter at the FSU game. We are civil now. Only Instagram friends but not facbeook friends.

Forbidden Fruit is in med school. I think he is happy? He’s still forbidden but not gay.

These are the friends I’ve spoken to in the last year. The people that make me smile. Most of them I’d like to stay in touch with as years go by. We are all funny people, all connected in such strange ways, with such interesting stories.

As for Slinder, we still do not speak. Ironically, I’ve been to Virginia so many times this year. I think the man still despises me. Alas, time must heal all. Cheers to being friends one day in the near future.

I read a book called 10 percent happier. I’d like to get into meditation, and use this blog to post positive things in my life.

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24th
April
Today was my last day of undergrand, and while I have neglected you mr. tumblr I think its about time to give you up. I have blogged for many years now about my misfortunate mishaps, and fruitless quests of love. I’ve gone through diaries, live journals, and xangas. However, I admit mr. tumblr you were the most artistic, the blog with most depth, laughs, and feelings. I learned a lot in college. I grew into myself. I figured out how to be the happiest, and where to find a happy medium. I learned I am extreme. I learned I don’t follow the rules. I learned I work hard, but I also get tired easily. I pushed myself these four years, and accomplished just about everything I wanted too. The only thing I didn’t achieve well… I ended up never trying for, but who needs blue key?
Can we remember freshmen year? My Phi Tau boys introduced me to the college frat life, but it was ZBT that really rocked my world. It sounds ridiculous, but my old stomping grounds really makes me smile. Mr. Big you took up half my blog, ruined my life, forced me to get up on my feet to spite you, and made me smile so many times. You’re an idiot, but I love coming back to Tally. You’re not that much of an asshole now, and I’m glad we’re friends for the ages. I’ll send you one of those invitations to my wedding.
I never found soulmate, but I came pretty damn close. I realized who to look for in the future, and who could work for me forever. I also realized in the beginning a love should come easy. It should be passionate, and not forced. A list of the qualities for a potential soulmate doesn’t always pan out to happiness. If you have to convince yourself its not worth it.
The preview man was right who needs hospitality… Good thing I declared my major as telecom and stuck with it. MBA or ISOM I’ll come back for you perhaps… Business minor you ruined my GPA… but I am happy with my Telecommunication Major.
Right now the job outlook doesn’t look the best, but what can you do? I’ve worked hard for four years, and I’m proud of what I created. I feel these things had to happen for me to grow -to bring me back on track. 
I’m really glad I was involved in swimming these four years. Half the time I was too busy for practice, and I could never show the team how much I cared.. but I did, and I do.. I am truly okay with missing my senior banquet, and our last date function for nationals this year. Serving as the teams president, and being there for them last weekend made it all worth it.
While Cicerones didn’t pan out to be everything I dreamed, it still gave me the opportunity to give tours. I love this school. I love being an ambassador for this school. The one summer I spent at UF really bonded me with Cicerones, but unfortunately in the school year I can’t dedicate myself to one thing. However, I am not trying to give Cicerones a bad wrap. Sammy is a great mentor, and while I am horrible at keeping in touch I am so proud I am hers. Cicerones found me mentee, and I cannot thank them enough for that. He is integral to my college memories, and I truly wish him the best. I am also happy we are leaving a beautiful latin lady who I can come back to these next two years.
 I am a huge advocate for joining a sorority if you feel you fit in with those prospective ladies. As an out of stater gator I knew no one, and that was perfectly okay. I’ve made real girlfriends. Learned to recognize what real friendships are, and found my damn bridesmaids. Roll your eyes sorority-whore-hater, but I am a full supporter of the Greek system. 
Greek life also lead me to find my dear, and darling Pequena. This lady, who wanted nothing to do with me when I first claimed her as mine, has  been a godsend. She has helped me through countless tragedies, and has always been by my side. I hope to scuba with her at least once every year.
To my roommates of the past four years. Did you realize that all four of you were part of my crazy dorm room surgery? I love all of you, and I think its funny how differently all our roads in college went. Oh, and Dirty D this is your shout out.. I hate to admit this… but I think.. yes.
I love you.
Now, I realize I no longer have time for these heartfelt stories. The blog names, and recaps of my crazy nights. Frankly, I should not be having any of these things happen anymore. Undergrad is undergrad, and I am over not remembering if I spoke to you the night before. 
Thanks for the memories. Goodbye Mr. Tumblr. 

Today was my last day of undergrand, and while I have neglected you mr. tumblr I think its about time to give you up. I have blogged for many years now about my misfortunate mishaps, and fruitless quests of love. I’ve gone through diaries, live journals, and xangas. However, I admit mr. tumblr you were the most artistic, the blog with most depth, laughs, and feelings. 

I learned a lot in college. I grew into myself. I figured out how to be the happiest, and where to find a happy medium. I learned I am extreme. I learned I don’t follow the rules. I learned I work hard, but I also get tired easily. I pushed myself these four years, and accomplished just about everything I wanted too. The only thing I didn’t achieve well… I ended up never trying for, but who needs blue key?

Can we remember freshmen year? My Phi Tau boys introduced me to the college frat life, but it was ZBT that really rocked my world. It sounds ridiculous, but my old stomping grounds really makes me smile. Mr. Big you took up half my blog, ruined my life, forced me to get up on my feet to spite you, and made me smile so many times. You’re an idiot, but I love coming back to Tally. You’re not that much of an asshole now, and I’m glad we’re friends for the ages. I’ll send you one of those invitations to my wedding.

I never found soulmate, but I came pretty damn close. I realized who to look for in the future, and who could work for me forever. I also realized in the beginning a love should come easy. It should be passionate, and not forced. A list of the qualities for a potential soulmate doesn’t always pan out to happiness. If you have to convince yourself its not worth it.

The preview man was right who needs hospitality… Good thing I declared my major as telecom and stuck with it. MBA or ISOM I’ll come back for you perhaps… Business minor you ruined my GPA… but I am happy with my Telecommunication Major.

Right now the job outlook doesn’t look the best, but what can you do? I’ve worked hard for four years, and I’m proud of what I created. I feel these things had to happen for me to grow -to bring me back on track. 

I’m really glad I was involved in swimming these four years. Half the time I was too busy for practice, and I could never show the team how much I cared.. but I did, and I do.. I am truly okay with missing my senior banquet, and our last date function for nationals this year. Serving as the teams president, and being there for them last weekend made it all worth it.

While Cicerones didn’t pan out to be everything I dreamed, it still gave me the opportunity to give tours. I love this school. I love being an ambassador for this school. The one summer I spent at UF really bonded me with Cicerones, but unfortunately in the school year I can’t dedicate myself to one thing. However, I am not trying to give Cicerones a bad wrap. Sammy is a great mentor, and while I am horrible at keeping in touch I am so proud I am hers. Cicerones found me mentee, and I cannot thank them enough for that. He is integral to my college memories, and I truly wish him the best. I am also happy we are leaving a beautiful latin lady who I can come back to these next two years.

 I am a huge advocate for joining a sorority if you feel you fit in with those prospective ladies. As an out of stater gator I knew no one, and that was perfectly okay. I’ve made real girlfriends. Learned to recognize what real friendships are, and found my damn bridesmaids. Roll your eyes sorority-whore-hater, but I am a full supporter of the Greek system. 

Greek life also lead me to find my dear, and darling Pequena. This lady, who wanted nothing to do with me when I first claimed her as mine, has  been a godsend. She has helped me through countless tragedies, and has always been by my side. I hope to scuba with her at least once every year.

To my roommates of the past four years. Did you realize that all four of you were part of my crazy dorm room surgery? I love all of you, and I think its funny how differently all our roads in college went. Oh, and Dirty D this is your shout out.. I hate to admit this… but I think.. yes.

I love you.

Now, I realize I no longer have time for these heartfelt stories. The blog names, and recaps of my crazy nights. Frankly, I should not be having any of these things happen anymore. Undergrad is undergrad, and I am over not remembering if I spoke to you the night before. 

Thanks for the memories. Goodbye Mr. Tumblr. 

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Possibly just gave my last tour ever. It has been an honor to give tours at this amazing university and my favorite part about being Florida Cicerone.

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20th
March
love

love

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Dear Wilson,
You’re laying at my feet annoyed I won’t turn off this computer and go to bed.   Sorry, I want to play waste time instead of sleeping. I just wanted to let you know I have fallen in love with you. I have never felt so strong about something that is mine. You’re literally my responsibility and I love you unconditionally. I also feel like a freak writing about you, but today holding you in my arms as your face blew against the miami wind made me realize how much I love you. You little idiot that doesn’t know cool tricks because mummy is an idiot.

Thank you for being my unconditional companion. Its only been 4 months, but   you’re really growing on me..

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03rd
March
we be jammin to cancun tomorrow. meow meow

we be jammin to cancun tomorrow. meow meow

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02nd
March
nevver:

R. W. Emerson
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Call me lame or call me creepy, but this made me think of you.
Hope you like it… but then again you didn’t like my year old boarding pass…

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26th
February
No silly, but you are here…. and maybe I’ll be in Destin!!Thank you OSK for the best senior prom ever <3 It’s truly a blessing seeing you.

No silly, but you are here…. and maybe I’ll be in Destin!!
Thank you OSK for the best senior prom ever <3 
It’s truly a blessing seeing you.

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Dis been being my motto all year so far.

"I’ll be the best or nothing at all." 

She is so good…

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Hello Tumblr World Eli is back!

I doubt I am going to use tumblr a lot anymore… I just don’t get how its March and I have yet to give to you a sold post. Can you imagine there would come a day when I would be too busy for tumblr? 

Sorry I missed your third birthday tumblr.
I also never finished my what I learned in a year post.
All I want to back track on is how happy I am that the high school bros, and I are back and greater than ever. Everything has fallen into place with home, and I am so very grateful.

Only thing that annoys me is Slinder some how forgot we were actually friends or 
acquaintances this summer and some of fall.  He imagines I must of pulled out of a hat any recollection of conversations throughout summer or plans of a visit. I hate to break it to you, but what happend did honestly massively change your attitude towards me. This is the third year you refused to wish me happy birthday. I hope you realize I only let the whole situation go whenever we are on good terms. Its a shame, fighting only fuels the fire.

 Regardless of everything, I believe time and more time will fix it. I will wait until we can be civil, and speak once in a blue moon. Notice, I have finally stopped asking for friendship? May you be the happiest sir. 

Quick Recap on life:

My 22 birthday weekend was glorious. Shout out to club 22 for making it da best!

I love Wilson.

No one had ever caused me more anxiety or hive outbreaks in my life than oldbestfriend. Actually, no one has ever made me break out into hives… I am still wishing you nothing, but the best. However, it perplexes me why running into you or hearing about you causes my insides so much fear and anxiety. Everyone tells me to get over it. I just pray for his well being.

had a fantastic weekend with the swim team! We killed GSU and friends. We definitely bonded nicely.

I applied for my first jobs today. Hopefully things work out…. I am applying to Google, and all over for news reporter jobs.

Characters Chosen and I have a baby arango.
She is the tango!

Lastly, I’m going to Cancun in less than 7 days!!!! 

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